The day had arrived for our last and final Ayahuasca ceremony of the retreat. I was feeling pretty relieved because every time I drink the tea, it takes such a toll on my body. I had a feeling that it was going to be a really great ceremony though because everyone in the group was in such high spirits. I was completely open and ready to surrender to what Mother Aya had to tell me. Bring it on Mother Ayahuasca, let’s celebrate!
WOW!!! What a last ceremony it was! I took maybe half a shot of the elixir and went in so deep. Normally I’m able to go outside and hang out with everyone under the moonlight but last night I was just stuck on my mat; stuck in a good way. It was a very pleasurable experience for me. My arms and legs were flailing around and I was breathing what seemed to be like sighs of relief, “Aaaaaah…” It was such a good feeling.
Sam (a fellow participant), who was sitting two mats away from me, all of a sudden started talking and laughing hysterically. Slowly, one by one, the whole maloca followed and began to fill with joy and happiness; it was like a domino effect. The energy in the room was just light. Then the shaman’s singing got faster and more upbeat so the facilitators took out some instruments and began to play along. The whole group chimed in to add to the music. Some were beating on the drums, while others were blowing on the flute, and someone was even playing the kalimba (thumb piano). I couldn’t really sit up because my body felt so heavy but as my contribution to the tribe, I was making music by stomping on the floor. It was seriously like a huge celebration, such good vibes all around. Somehow we all knew the song was ending so at that moment everyone started clapping and cheering simultaneously. It was truly an awesome and magical ceremony! It was like we were all on the same wavelength. Too too much fun!
After that joyous time, it quieted down a bit as I got very deep in the medicine again. I remembered that I wanted to know what my spirit animal was since all of my friends had already figured out theirs. All of a sudden I started to see a vision of horses on a carousel going up and down, up and down. I knew that I had always resonated with horses because of their run-wild, free spirit. Shortly after that, I saw a bright rainbow fly in my sight and I saw a white horse eating grass in a beautiful green field. Right in that moment, it dawned on me that my spirit animal was a UNICORN! Whaaaaaatttt, that’s so cool!
Mother Aya was speaking to me and telling me to be very careful because once people know this, there’s a possibility that some may get jealous and try to smear my name. They might hate me because I’m different and unique. But regardless of that, I have to take full ownership that I was chosen to be given these special gifts so I need to fully embody that and be proud of who I truly am inside. For me, I realized with great gifts and blessings comes great responsibility as well. So I must go out in the world and use these gifts for the common good. That message was basically it for the night but for me, it was just PERFECT. Overall, it was truly an amazing last ceremony. I feel like I’ve gotten all the answers I needed during this Ayahuasca Journey. I’m sooooo grateful to be on this adventure with such a dynamic and amazing group of people! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! <3
Join me next week for my last blog post regarding my Ayahuasca retreat in Peru. I will discuss my reflections with working with the medicine and give you an update on the things that have changed over the course of the last two years since I’ve been back. I’m so excited to share with you all the amazing news!